Tuesday, October 16, 2012
To Be Grateful
Don't see the end to a day that can't get worse? Make your day better by doing positive little things you know you can accomplish. Consider what you have in your life and take a moment to appreciate every bit of it. If you notice that others around you seem like they are in a better state than you, whether financially or intellectually, consider what you've been given in the past or the knowledge you've acquired about anything at all. You might actually know more than the stranger next to you even though he might appear to be wiser or happier. Think about the people in your life who mean the world to you, and even if you can only think of one person, be happy that such a person exists in your life and is important to you. Take ten minutes out of your busy, chaotic, socially disoriented life and reflect. Buy yourself a cup of coffee or almond milk tea—it's my absolute favorite—or anything you like and enjoy it, because you know it will make you happy. Temporary happiness, but happiness nonetheless. Appreciate the person you are and the fact that only you can be you. There are so many negative qualities a person can have that you don't have—be thankful for that.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
When are feelings ever easy?
Never. They are always uneasy. Negative feelings, that is. If you've ever contemplated the kinds of feelings which are "easy," you'll most likely only conjure up moments when you were having a good time with someone you are happy to be around, naturally.
Uneasy feelings come like recurring nightmares. They consume my social life the way a famished snake ruthlessly swallows a rabbit in its entirety—sigh, life is just laughing at me. I can hear it. There is just something wrong with the idea of a wrongful act. The thought alone may eat at your morals, where post-wrongful-act-committing leaves you obsessing for days over how terrible you felt. You feel your morals slowly deteriorating.. and you wonder where your virtues wandered off to. Of course, the act would be deemed wrong only in terms of your judgment of what is right and what is wrong. Wrong is only a perception—nothing is ever really wrong unless put into context where something else can be considered right, but we'll not delve into that. By societal standards pain and anger are wrong feelings to experience and harbor, because as long as we aren't happy or feeling good, it's wrong. Furthermore, if your actions directly had a less-than-beneficial impact on another person, it's wrong. At times I'd wished I was a robot. Robots feel intrinsically nothing. They can't distinguish right from wrong. They have no emotions. I wish I could feel no emotions. But I am not a robot.
In the long run, people judge right from wrong based on their own premises of what's good and what's not, but then again their own premises are derived from what society has already decided to be socially acceptable or unacceptable. Humanity may be the savior and death of us all.
One tendency of mine is that I over-ruminate, si possible. If you're anything like me, you overlook situations and contemplate the symptoms of your distress but instead of merely contemplating, you go above and beyond that by focusing on the negative and not seeming to let anything go. In order to let go of such overwhelming guilt or regret, you would need to come to terms with the way everything in your life has turned out. Good or bad, you will never be able to move forward properly (again, proper only in terms of how society defines what is proper and what isn't), unless you accept that what's happened has happened.
Uneasy feelings come like recurring nightmares. They consume my social life the way a famished snake ruthlessly swallows a rabbit in its entirety—sigh, life is just laughing at me. I can hear it. There is just something wrong with the idea of a wrongful act. The thought alone may eat at your morals, where post-wrongful-act-committing leaves you obsessing for days over how terrible you felt. You feel your morals slowly deteriorating.. and you wonder where your virtues wandered off to. Of course, the act would be deemed wrong only in terms of your judgment of what is right and what is wrong. Wrong is only a perception—nothing is ever really wrong unless put into context where something else can be considered right, but we'll not delve into that. By societal standards pain and anger are wrong feelings to experience and harbor, because as long as we aren't happy or feeling good, it's wrong. Furthermore, if your actions directly had a less-than-beneficial impact on another person, it's wrong. At times I'd wished I was a robot. Robots feel intrinsically nothing. They can't distinguish right from wrong. They have no emotions. I wish I could feel no emotions. But I am not a robot.
In the long run, people judge right from wrong based on their own premises of what's good and what's not, but then again their own premises are derived from what society has already decided to be socially acceptable or unacceptable. Humanity may be the savior and death of us all.
One tendency of mine is that I over-ruminate, si possible. If you're anything like me, you overlook situations and contemplate the symptoms of your distress but instead of merely contemplating, you go above and beyond that by focusing on the negative and not seeming to let anything go. In order to let go of such overwhelming guilt or regret, you would need to come to terms with the way everything in your life has turned out. Good or bad, you will never be able to move forward properly (again, proper only in terms of how society defines what is proper and what isn't), unless you accept that what's happened has happened.
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